No time like the present to add a journal entry. I received my 'official' letter today from the district I work for. It's my first call back to work, an alarm of sorts. I've been working on 'stuff' all summer, but somehow that letter always revs up my metabolism a few notches, and this year it's more-so than ever.
This has been an eventful summer...moving to a new office/room at school, building a new class at ASU, Tio passing, Phoenix arriving, David dieing, Michelle's court battle, making a ton of new friends (this time MY age), meeting a new guy, traveling around the country via Sheila's blog, and on and on..... There are still a lot of loose ends on the job fronts. Constructing my new class is way behind schedule as is getting a head start for the first day back at school. Lots going on. I like it that way because although it drives me insane at times, I get more accomplished in a time crunch.
Today is Darryl's birthday. Can't believe he is 35. Time has a way creeping by doesn't it? Michelle was 39 last month, and I still am trying to acclimate myself to the age of 62. WOW! Many of my grandmother's comments at 62 now make a lot more sense.
I remember my grandmother telling me that her outside appearance was a facade, she actually was a 40 year old woman inside a 62 year old body. I think back now about that statement and it makes perfect sense to me, as that is how I feel much of the time. It's a strange crossroads sensation, standing at this fork in the road between youth and age. I suppose this is how it would feel to be caught in a time warp filled with the illusion of dreams and the awareness of reality. From this observer's point of view it's that continuum where time and the space it occupies bend and fold from my point of view relative to whatever is happening in my life. I remember, as a high school student, reading Einstein's definition of a time warp and NOW I clearly understand his words. I know what's coming and want to make the best of my life now, but remain caught in my reality between work and pleasure. Trying to mix the two at my age is difficult. If I enjoy either too much, the other slips away. I think THAT is the illusion I have created. It's time to build a better one.
I'm out of words, so I'll close. Got kind of deep in thoughts this morning, but it's my truth this morning.
It's been a great summer. All is well. I'm working, am healthy, and my family is the same. What else could I ask for? Enjoy the rest of summer!
